What I feel right now :')

Mungkin ada benar apa yang aku baca dalam blog Aizat Abd yang dia tentang hidup kita sebenarnya. Jangan sia-siakan hidup kita hanya dengan kesedihan. Malah hiasi lahh dengan senyuman walaupun sakit. Sepatutmya kita bersyukur dan sedar lahh yang kita masih hidup di atas muka bumi dengan keizinan Allah S.W.T. Kalau kita hanya mengharapakan orang lain, kita tidak akan mengenali apa erti hidup sebenarnya. Itu lumrah kalau manusia suka sama suka antara lelaki dan perempuan kerana Allah melahirkan perasaaan itu dalam setiap insan-Nya untuk berkasih sayang. Cinta tidak boleh dipaksa malah ia akan datang dengan kerelaan sendiri dalam diri masing-masing. Andai cinta tak terbalas jangan lahh kita menagih cinta dari dia. Iyew! Aku mengaku aku pernah merasainyaa dan ia terlalu sakit tapi bila difikirkan semula berbaloi ke aku hanya menagih cinta dari dia? Sedangkan dia sikit pun tak kisah malah ada insan lain dalam hatinya. Mungkin :') Dan aku terpaksa terima ini semua dengan hati yang terbuka. Aku mengaku kadang-kadang ada juga yang aku mengharapkan dia akan kembali kepadaku suatu hari nanti tapi aku sedar itu mustahil. Sebab kalau tidak dah lama dia akan cari aku jika dia mempunyai perasaan yang sama dengan apa yang aku rasa.

I'm not trust you anymore!

Arrrgghhhhhh!!!! I hate you! I hate you! I hate you!!!!! To fast you find the other girls. I thought you will wait me until I fully cured but I'm wrong. So easy you said 'Iloveyou' 'Imissyou' but actually you not mean it. Suck! All man is same! Casanova! Shit! -.- Errr I'm not trust anyone more! They all just sweet talker to make woman melting to them. Jangan cakap kau suka aku padahal hakikatnyaaa kau suka orang lain bodohhhhh! :( 

That's why I love being single daripada nak terima jadi girlfriend korang! Macam ni lahh jadinyaa. I love to freedom! And can't do anything without permission them but only my parents! NO MORE LOVE! FULLSTOP! Defukkk.....

A letter for you

Dear you,

Hi Fad. I don't know how to say to you. I don't have strength to tell you truely. I know you like me and I perasan tuu dah lama tapi I buat-buat tak tahu. I bukan tak suka you. Suka but just as a friend. Not more than that. Since you bagi ferrero rocher with cadbury I dah boleh agak siapa yang bagi and it is you! Sampai lahh you mengaku dekat I. Then, you belikan I kinder beuno. Dua pulak tuu. Dah lahh I addicated sangat dekat kinder. Sampai cadbury you bagi sebelum ni pun I tak makan lagi I bawak balik JB. Dari situ I dah dapat agak you suka I and I tahu you kadang kadang banyak sabar even I macam tak layan you sangat. But sometimes you macam annoying. I'm so sorryyy Fad :( 


Sincerely,
Farah Adibah

One Two Three Hi!

A long time I'm not updated anything! Haha how are you guys? I hope everyone is fine. Since masuk matrik ni seriously busy sangat kott. Nak updated pun sampai takde masa. Even balik JB pun nak buka blog memang I don't have time. Sebab balik bawak assignment yg berlambak haha actually takde lahh berlambak mana pun *tipu jee* Okayy kalau nak counting almost 3 month tak updated.

Sekarang dah bulan raya so what I want to say is Selamat Hari to everyone. Please forgive me if I have done wrong. Everyone have do mistake. Me too! So zero zero okayy? Fair! Hehe :P Kalau nak cakap dalam ni actually memang banyak kott. Sangat! Pasal aku patah kaki, chicken pox lagi lepas tuu haish seriously dugaan aku sebelum puasa sampai lahh ni dah raya. Sangat sadis sekali ialah raya bertongkat -.- I thought a week before raya it will getting fine but is not. Seriously I'm upset! Everyone can raya as usuall but me? Cannot. But alhamdulilah everyone understanding me :') But what the best this raya is my brother! :* Because almost 3 years he didn't come back to Malaysia. And what the new is he want marry. I will get sister-in-law! Hehe


Tapi kalau nak cakap pasal life aku dekat matrik masa patah kaki ni seriously macam sedih kott sebenarnya. Entah lahh. Sometimes I just feel I trouble everyone. I can't do myself. Everything needs some favour but I really shy when I need favour from them. Sometimes have someone care bout me but sometime have someone ignore me. But that person ignore me, I thought I can hope from them but just only my dream. Seriously disappointed! :( Dugaan aku bulan puasa sangat banyak sebenarnya. Tapi aku mengaku kekadang aku tak boleh terima ni semua. Yeahh I know I should think positive but I'm not strong like you thought. Everyone have their weakness. Okayy positive!


Nak cerita dari A to Z memang panjang! Haha aku pun tak tahu nak start dari mana sebenarnya. Sebabnya aku patah kaki, rasa tak perlu bagitahu kott. K! Next, hmm life dekat matrik ehh? Atas tadi dah bagitahu haha. Okayy next, haaa masa nak balik JB harituuu. Ni apa orang yang nampak dekat matrik masa tuu lahh semua cakap 'Kesian kau, Dyba!' Balik haritu aku terpaksa naik bas. Semua orang tanya kenapa parents tak amik? I don't want everyone think negative about my parents. Actually my parents can't take leave because their are so busy that time and me should understand. Goodness! Have Aina, Madu, Wana and Wani my ex schoolmate also Eqa my bestfriend at KMJ :) Diorang tolong aku. Acane aku balik ehh? Aku balik pakai tongkat so sememangnya wheechair tak bawak langsung and the hardest part what I most think is



'MACAM MANA NAK NAIK TANGGA BAS TUU WEYHH?! TINGGI KOTTT'

Kalau turun aku tak kesah sebab it's quite easy. Tangga bas tuu tinggi weyhh. Ahhhh sudahh! I know everyone look it at me. Sumpah segan! Aku jee macam......... Seriously, I lost my confident. Dengan sorang pensyarah ni ada jee macam tak puas hati dengan aku tauu! Even keadaan aku macam gini ada jee dia nak bahan. Err time aku tak datang kelas dia takde pulakk nak perli perli pasal aku. Time aku ada jee. Nampak tak permainan dia? Err nasib baik kelas dia seminggu sekali dan kalau boleh aku macam tak nak datang jee. Aku ada agama lagi so terpaksa attend kelas tuu jugak dengan rela hati! Yeahh kawan sebelah sebelah aku cakap suruh sabar tapi nak sampai bila. Cepat lahh habis satu sem ni takde lahh jumpa pensyarah tuu lagi kott! -.-

Ni pun cuti dua minggu jee. Seminggu sebelum raya dan seminggu selepas raya. 27 haribulan ni dah nak kena balik matrik semula. Dengan kerja tutor satu apa tak usik lagi. Aku sebenarnyaa risau kerja tutor ni tapi tahap malas ni to the power infinity hehe but I need to do! Kalau dah cuti ni memang semua benda aku jadi malas sebenarnyaa. Nanti dekat matrik jee baru nak rajin tu pun slowly like a tortoise. Dengan secrect admirenya lagi. Malas kott sebenarnyaa. Matrik belajar sebenarnyaa takde masa nak bercinta cintun nihh. Tapi tipu lahh takde suka guys dekat sana haha ofcourse ada kott! But crush crush gituu jee lahh. Bukan orang tuu tahu pun kita suka dia. Just in quietly. Guys in KMJ mostly is casanova! Oppss! Haha mampus aku kalau ada budak budak ni baca hehe I mean only certain not at all :D

Dulu masa sekolah selalu cakap cepat lahh besar study dekat university semua tapi bila dah besar lahh rindunyaa nak sekolah. Nampak tak bersyukur haha tapi seriously bila makin besar kita makin matured sebenarnya. I have learn something new when I grow up. Tapi itu pun orang ada cakap perangai aku macam budak-budak. Fish! -.- But in same time I did to forget all my sadness before I enter to matriks. Okayy only this thing I wanna share with everyone. Enjoy your life!

On My Birthday

Happy birthday to me :) Yeahh thanks to all wishes everyone in Facebook, Twitter, texting, whatsapp etc. Actually on my birthday this year is nothing. Nothing interested! It's so bored! I can't get my big present like last year. I can't get blow candle on the cake. But I still grateful because I have friends around me. Singing for me. Durrah make voicenote for me. She sing Happy Birthday to me :) Then when at night I on call with AJ and he also record song for me. Live on the phone kott hehe

On my birthday I just sitting at home. Bukan tak nak keluar tapi kaki macam gini still belum sembuh lagi so nak buat macam mana. Just sitting at home! Hmm seriously bored! :'( What I do is just on call with everyone. Because I get free call. Sampai dah lama tak contact dengan Haff teros contact sampai harini. Then just now he made song for me. Okayy ni bukan lagu happy birthday k! Aku tak tahu tajuk lagu ni apa. Aku cari tak jumpa. He changed the lyrics and puts my name in the song then playing with guitar. When I heard okayy I'm melting. Everyday I keep playing that song before I sleep. Sangat sweet! This ramadhan full year I friendship with Haff because I know him ramadhan last year. We iftar together but this year we can't iftar together :( 

I miss Haff. I really wanna meet him!